Monday, December 31, 2007

The last day of 2007...

2008 is almost here!
I want 2007 to be over...it wasn't a good year...
Is 2008 going to be better or the same?
We'll see...
Happy new year to everybody!

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Merry Christmas!


So...it's Christmas time!
I still haven't figured out whether I like Christmas or not...
Oh well...I don't care!

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Everything you see is a lie...

I feel so lonely...so distant from everyone...
Every morning I wear the same smile...but I don't mean it...
Have you ever feel this unique kind of pain that makes you wanna make your throat bleed from screaming?
I want to scream!
I want to break free!
I'm back to the darkness...
Back..

Monday, December 17, 2007

So cold...

It's so cold...I can barely type...my fingers are frozen...
I feel isolated...
I'm repulsed by people I used to like...
What's the point in talking when I'm only listening about problems?
Seriously...I'm tired...
I care too much...too much...
As if I don't have my own problems! As if I don't have a life to talk for!
I'm tired of over analyzing things...
2008 is almost here...
I need to write down my resolutions...
On top of my list: Survive!


Sunday, December 9, 2007

*angry*

I'm so pissed off with some people!
I'm so tired of caring and giving without taking!
It's time to become mean!
Seriously...I'm not asking for a lot of things!
JUST REMEMBER ME!
Awful people...
I hate you all...
I'm sure none of you knows I'm talking about you!

Friday, December 7, 2007

More time please!

Update time! Hehe!

I just came home...I went out with my friends and I must admit I had a great time!
How can you get lost in our city? How can you get lost when you know where you want to go?
Don't ask me! I was only waiting! Hehe!

It's going to be a long and exhausting weekend...
Studying, studying and studying!

I need more time! I don't like deadlines...although I work better when time is running our...
Strange me!

That's all...I'm off for now...

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Dum dum dum dum....humming melodies...



My favorite movie is Tim Burton's Nightmare Before Christmas!
I simply love it!
Christmas is almost here...
I decided to spend Christmas with a smile!
No more bad mood! No more yelling! No more darkness!
That's what I'm saying now....but I'm sure that melancholy is gonna knock on my door again...

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Books that changed my life...

I read a lot. I get affected by what I read. Some books have really made me change my way of thinking. Just a few of them:

  1. The Beach by Alex Garland. I love it! This book made me wanna travel all around the world, visit Vietnam. I never get tired of reading it.
  2. The Lord of the Rings by Tolkien. What can I say about this epic trilogy? Underestimated of course!
  3. The Idiot by Fyodor Dostoevsky. One of the most interesting books I've ever read! All the characters seem to be so normal, yet they hide in them many dangerous feelings.
  4. The Trial by Franz Kafka. I originally read this for a school project.
  5. The Last Temptation of Christ by Nikos Kazantzakis. I was thrilled to read this masterpiece!
  6. Christ Recrucified by Nikos Kazantzakis. How can this man be called an atheist? I've never read something so religious and respectful!
  7. Brave New World by Aldous Huxley. So prophetic!
  8. Twenty Thousand Leagues Under The Sea by Jules Vern. I was amazed by this book. The descriptions were so real!
  9. Harry Potter by J.K. Rowling. Seriously! The Harry Potter books are among my favorites...
  10. The World's Clock Strikes Midnight by Menelaos Lountemis. No words for this unique book. So moving!
These are just a few books...I'm only writing three Greek books, the ones that inspired me the most. I also love Edgar Allan Poe's writings, rather than the poems. His darkness is so charming!

So...open a book! It'll teach you more than your television!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Insanity!

Insane world! Our world!
Democracy is at stake...
We've lost the sense of logic...
Am I losing my mind or I'm simply joining the rest of the world?
I can't stand watching the news! Not anymore!
I'm tired of murders, rapes, robberies etc.
I'M TIRED!
I feel sick...I am sick...

Listen to "The End" by The Doors...listen to The Doors!

If you go to church, pray to God, memorize the stuff you've been told at school, watch TV, eat cheap plastic food and never ask a question, you're happy! If you do nothing from all those, you're FREE!
Use your will! Use your voice!

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Favorite albums...

My favorite records are(the order is random):

1)The Dark Side of the Moon by Pink Floyd. I didn't pay much attention to it when I first bought it. I had to get obsessed with The Wall in order to re-discover it. One of the most honest songs I've ever listening to is in this record. Brain Damage! The lunatic is in my head...

2)Strange Days by The Doors. Probably their best album. Their first album was amazing but this one has got a uniqueness. ..
Strange days have found us...so true!

3)Murder Ballads by Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds. It's dark. It's scary. It's about love. It's about death. The first song-Song of Joy- kept lingering in my head for days when I first listened to it. The duet with Kylie Minogue is a highlight. Nick Cave at his best!

4)Physical Graffiti by Led Zeppelin. What can I say about Led Zeppelin! They are the best band that has ever existed on this earth! In this album I found myself! The Rover, Trampled Under Foot, Kashmir, Ten Years Gone and many more!

5)Pornography by The Cure. I love their sound! I love the darkness that dwells in their songs. It doesn't matter if we all die...

6)Achtung Baby by U2. The song "So Cruel" is philosophy to me! We crossed the line, who pushed who over? It doesn't matter to you, it matters to me...

7)Music for the Masses by Depeche Mode. I couldn't decide on this one. I love every album by Depeche Mode. Some Great Reward, Black Celebration, Music for the Masses,
Violator, Ultra and Playing the Angel. I like them all the same. Depeche Mode is the kind of band that makes me really obsessed!

8)Nevermind by Nirvana. It changed my life! Literally!

I could go on forever....but I feel so tired and I'm in need of some sleep....
One thing: Music is addictive! Highly addictive!


Friday, November 2, 2007

Confusion...

I know not what to do...
I feel depressed...deeply depressed...
I'm confused...
Many feelings are ready to burst...
I need someone to remind me who I really am...
I feel as if someone else is in my mind...
I hate the voices...they keep screaming...
I've lost my sleep...
I'm losing myself...
Help....

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Paint it black!

I see a red door and I want it painted black...
Paint it black, one of the best songs by Rolling Stones!
I love black! It's my favorite color!

One more night of sleeplesness...
One more night of music!

I'm in pain...physical and emotional...
It's better than being numb...emotionally numb...comfortably numb!

Saturday, October 27, 2007

I can't think of a title so I'll name it "Some spare thoughts of mine"




Have you ever felt that you communicate perfectly with somebody?
That you're in his/her mind?
That you can guess what he's/she's gonna say before even opening his/her mouth?
It feels great! And it's rare! Very rare!
I'm not talking necessarily about love! I'm referring to communication, communication beyond fake words and empty sentences.

The night is the worst time to be awake when you're in pain...in emotional pain. It's when all your thoughts are surfacing. It's when you can hear your fears talking. It's when your worst nightmares are alive in front of your eyes. It's when your decisions begin to fade away. The darkness heals but sometimes it creates even bigger wounds than the ones you had before. Is the darkness your friend or your enemy?

I admire honesty...I wish I had more honesty in my life...

I like "Comfortably Numb" by Pink Floyd...listen to it! It's one of the most honest songs I've ever listened to...

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

It was about time...


No school for me today...
We have a sit-in...it was about time! Most of the schools in our city are closed...
So...I have plenty of free time to kill...
Stupid system! I don't blame the students for closing the school...
I BLAME THE EDUCATION SYSTEM!
We're just fighting for our future!
(I sound like the people we make fun of, don't I?---> :P)

Other than that, today I found out how beautiful out city is in the morning...
It was a cold, rainy morning. It was great!

Friday, October 19, 2007

Smile!


I had to post this one!

I'm against ...

Violence
War
Organised religion
Governments of terror
The system
Showing off
Maths
Physics
Chemistry
Elections
Fascism
Our education system

My day was...unforgettable! A pretty bad day and yet I kept laughing! Dancing! Me!
I apologise to those who had to see us so wild! Sorry!*ironic tone*

Music opens new doors to me...I'm ready! Ready to change!




Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Fear is everywhere...

Fear is everywhere...

Fear hides in the darkness...
Fear is: every stranger you meet...
Fear is: walking alone in an empty street..
Fear is: silence...
Fear is: turning on the TV and watching the news...
Fear is: running out of time...
Fear is: waking up in the middle of the night...
Fear is: falling with nobody to catch you...
Fear is: anger...
Fear is: falling in love..
Fear is: losing somebody...
Fear is: opening your eyes...
Fear is everywhere...

We all live in fear. My fears grow stronger day by day...I cannot fight them...I've never tried to...I'm used to them...

When you face fear every single day, you kind of form your life in order to stay sane...
Death is not the worst thing that could happen to you...death is salvation...
I'm afraid of death...but death isn't my biggest fear...death is more like a mystery to me...not a fear...

I'm through a weird phase...depressed but I can hide it...worried about those around me...worried about the cancer they carry...(please don't leave me! Not now!)

Life is so full of things...I don't know if I can cope with them...I feel I'm running out of time...

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Death is near...



Creepy title, creepy topic, creepy mood!

I woke up with a burden...as I'm waiting for a family member to die I started thinking of the whole "death" issue...
What really happens when we die? Do we know it? Can we feel it?
I've heard many stories about people who had near-death experiences. They say that they could see themselves from above, they could see their body lying there and they knew they had to go back...
I haven't decided whether I want to believe this or not...

But what happens when we die? Do we go to Heaven? Do we go to Hell? Do we come back to life in a new body? I don't really trust the religious explanations....don't get me wrong, I was never a big fan or religion...

So when we die we simply stop existing...scary, isn't it? You live your life, you make money, you get married, you have children and then you die!

I'm over-analyzing the whole thing...I think I'm going to take it easy...

Hey, did you know that Placebo's drummer left the band? This pissed me off!
Why do great bands have to split up?
Speaking of great bands...Led Zeppelin are giving a concert on November...needless to say that I'm not going...

I'm saving up money for an iPod...why do they have to be so expensive? I hate saving money!

Oh yes! Before I forget! I had the best time ever on Friday night! I was out with my friends! Thanks guys!

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Let it be...it's just life!

"All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people, where do they all belong?"

This is a line from the song "Eleanor Rigby" by The Beatles.
Do you feel lonely or are you too busy to realize the emptiness of your life?
I've spent many years of loneliness.
I don't blame my friends, they did their duty! They were always there!
I needed isolation...I managed to alienate several people...I don't regret it though...
Loneliness grows stronger when you can't stand yourself! Trust me! I've been there!

I'm not alone...
I wake up every morning and I can smile...
I go to school and things aren't that bad...
I feel the darkness approaching but now I can embrace it, not drown in it...
I'm not alone...

Another song by The Beatles...

Let It Be


When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. Yeah
There will be an answer, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

That's my philosophy of life...Let It Be...
Whatever is to come will come...
If a very good friend of mine read this, she'd laugh! Let It Be!


Tuesday, October 2, 2007

It was a good day...

"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."

Nathaniel Hawthorne

When was the last time you smiled?
When was the last time you smiled without forcing it?
I smiled a lot today...I was with good friends...
Friends from the past, friends I thought I had forgotten and have been forgotten by...
Friends from the present, people I like being with...
Friends I've never seen but feel so close to them...
Music is a friend, a friend who won't betray...
Books are friends, beloved and always adored...
The mirror is a friend, forever there, unchanging...

My guitar is ruined...broken...I need to find a new one...
I get attached to objects...it's hard to let go...

Saturday, September 29, 2007

I'm a creep....I'm a weirdo...I wish I was special...

I love this song...

"Creep" by Radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here...

She's running out again,
She's running out
She's run run run running out...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special...

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't belong here.

Hurry! Why? No reason!

Big cities are evil...they make you feel so small...but you have to go there!
You have to be a part of it! You have to breath the polluted air! You have to be one with the crowd!

But you can't stand the noise...you can't stand people's eyes...still, you're a part of it!
You go to the supermarket to shop...but you can't find the soap you want and you've picked the wrong cereals...you have to pay for what you've bought but you simply can't find where you've put your money...you have to wait in the queue to pay...you check you're watch...you're late again!

You go home...empty! You turn on the television...pure garbage! You decide to listen to music...there's no real music, only noise! You make something to eat...it's tasteless! You go to sleep...nightmares! You wake up...routine!

Am I being a pessimist or is our life screwed up?

I hate big crowds. When I'm in places with lots of people I can't breath, I get nervous, scared, sometimes I even shake! It's not normal...I've managed to control my fear...I avoid eye-contact...you can lie but you're eyes always reveal the truth...

I went to the record store and found my best friend, trying to find out what record she'd buy. It wasn't planned, it just happened...I spent ten minutes with her, long enough to make me smile!
I had to go somewhere else...so I left her there and headed back to the hustle and bustle of the city...

Everybody seems to be busy...everybody walks fast...every body's gone mad...
Am I one of them? Perhaps...

Friday, September 28, 2007

Ghost Song

The first picture I'm posting...a dead tree...Oh how I crave winter!
I really like this song...it can be found on the album "An American Prayer". It contains poems by Jim Morrison with music by The Doors...

"Ghost Song" by The Doors

Awake.
Shake dreams from you hair,
my pretty child, my sweet one.
Choose the day and the sign of your day,
the day's divinity,
first thing you see.
A vast radiant beach in a cool jeweled moon,
couples naked race down by its quiet side,
and we laugh like soft, mad children,
smug in the wooly cotton brains of infancy.
The music and voices are all around us.
Choose, they crooned, the ancient ones.
The time has come again.
Choose now, they croon beneath the moon,
Beside an ancient lake.
Enter again the sweet forest,
enter the hot dream,
come with us.
Everything is broken up, and dances.
Indians scattered on Dawn's Highway bleeding,
ghosts crowd the young child's fragile eggshell mind

Thursday, September 27, 2007

The Doors of Perception...

My blog is named after the poem Jim Morrison read and decided to name his band “The Doors”. I like the title. We all have a different perception of reality, of life, of vision. The doors are always there, waiting to be opened. It’s up to us to choose the door we like the most and accept what’s in it. We either accept it or open another door. That’s what life is. A long corridor with countless doors. Each door hides something; pain, love, despair, hatred, death, happiness and misery. It’s up to us to open the right door when we need it the most.

“The Doors” happen to be my favorite band too. You can’t listen to their music when your mind is locked. You need to get rid of your doubts and drown in their music. It’s not just music, it’s philosophy. You’ve just entered the magical world of Jim Morrison’s lyrics and the psychedelic music accompanying them. Morrison was writing poetry. Morrison was a poet. He was a rock star, a singer, a drug-addict, a sex symbol but first of all he was a poet.

I’ve spent many nights staying awake, listening to The Doors. They are one of the few bands I’m obsessed with. I like many bands and artists but there’s only a small number of the ones that really thrill me. If I’d had to decide my top 5 it would probably be something like this:

1) The Doors

2) Nick Cave

3) Depeche Mode

4) Led Zeppelin

5) ...............

I always leave number 5 blank. It’s for the bands I like but only for a certain amount of time. Now it’s HIM. A month ago I was in love with Placebo. It depends on my mood…

Music is everything, isn’t it? I don’t dare to imagine my life without music! It would be dry, boring and emotionless. I love making music, expressing myself through lyrics.

I think I’m getting carried away! I only wanted to explain the title of my blog and I started talking for music!
So....it's pretty obvious that I love The Doors...
More is to come...

First Post!

This is my first post! I don't really know what to write...
I never had the ability to write in my own way...
So...don't judge me from my first post...
I'll find time to post more...